Amber 'Camdelle' Castillon
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Hi
Allow me to introduce myself...
Hello there! My name is Amber, but I answer to "Camdelle" (or Cam) on the internet.I am 39 years old and I was born & raised the suburbs of Chicago - where I currently reside with my family. I've got my two kids, my soulmate, a senior doggo, & a kitty cat. They're my whole world, and my prime directive is to try to give them the best life or best version of me that I can. Whichever comes first.Other than that, I am just a big nerd that wears her heart on her sleeve and every single emotion she feels on her face; I'm a someone that wants to help others and make people smile. I live my life mindfully and with positive intentions, trying to do my best to do no harm but take no shit.Beyond that, I am an open book - if you're curious about my life and want to know more, you'll have to wait for the book I'm never going to write like everyone else. (Or you could just ask.)
A FEW OF MY FAVORITE THINGS:
My 2 Fantastic Kids ✦ My Husband ✦ My Family ✦ My Friends ✦ My Community
Foggy Weather ✦ Gaming ✦ Photography ✦ Music & Art ✦ Tarot ✦ Reading Books
Kindness ✦ Equality ✦ Mindfulness ✦ Love ✦ Honesty ✦ Trust ✦ Accountability
Black Coffee & Chai Tea ✦ Animal Fries ✦ Beignets ✦ Flaming Hots ✦ BBQ
Science ✦ Witchcraft ✦ Fantasy ✦ Documentaries ✦ Movies ✦ Live Music ✦ Good TV
Moon Phases ✦ Astronomy ✦ The Smell of Campfires ✦ Stargazing ✦ Laughing
The Colors Teal & Purple ✦ Singing Loudly ✦ Long Nature Walks ✦ Longer Road Trips
Places Where Mountains & Forests Meet The Water ✦ Writing & Storytelling
The Endlessly Brand
I launched my independent portrait company, Endlessly Photography, on January 1st, 2012.
For over a decade, I had the honor & privilege of being able to photograph countless numbers of truly incredible people, places, and things as a Professional Lifestyle Portrait, Wedding, Boudoir, and Event Photographer. It wan an incredible experience and I miss it a lot.Everything changed in 2020 when it became necessary to find remote work. Thankfully, by August of that same year, a new career path was forged when one of my best friends asked me to help manage her life & her content on Twitch / YouTube. This is how The Endlessly Company (Endlessly LLC) was born.The Endlessly Co. originally focused on content management & media production for creators, influencers, and streamers. For several years in my capacity as co-founder, my responsibilities included: graphic design, content management, and production. My co-founder (and life partner) Dan is an extremely talented & proficient video editor, musician, A/V wizard, and IT tech! Until early 2024, we were a dream team - and we got to utilize our greatest strengths & talents to take on challenging, creative-based projects.Toward the end of 2023, I decided I wanted to make another change in my career and we shifted to focus primarily on Dan and his editing of short & long form video content for Twitch Streamers, Influencers, and YouTubers. If you're looking for a video editor, make sure to reach out to him for details as he is still taking on clients on a case-by-case basis! As for me, I'm currently working an expanded role at a tabletop card game company that I really love & enjoy. While we don't get to with each other every day these days, I still get to work next to him at the battle stations!As for photography: as much as I miss it, I'm not sure if I will return to it full time. You can always reach out to inquire about sessions - but I'm only available for previous clients or for special cases.
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SQUAD FIRST
The greatest (and luckiest) honor of my life that I get to be called “Mom” by two of the most amazing kids that have ever existed. They are both such great, smart, funny, wonderful kids.It should be no surprise that I love these perfect creatures more than anything in this world. They are the pinnacle of importance and the highest ranking when it comes to the "favorite humans ever" department. These two now-teenaged miracles, who also happen to be the greatest cosmic creations of my whole entire existence, are quite simply: everything to me.They are the core that I have built my foundation around, my daily inspiration to do better and to BE better, the driving force behind my desire to succeed. I am SO proud of who they have begun to become and to be their mama. It is my greatest hope that they are proud of me, too.About a half dozen years ago, our trio became a full squad when my partner Daniel moved in. For the past half-decade, we've been partners in life, love, & even in business! "Doing life together" as we refer it. Dan is caring, kind, and I am in awe of his boundless creative talent, drive to succeed, and the selfless way that he cares for me, the kids, and all those around him. He's a great step-dad that helps me raise my kids ever day, and it's so beautiful and touching to witness. I'm pretty lucky.I love them all so much, heart & soul.They are my squad, my fireteam, my pack, my squadron, & they'll always come 1st above all else.
WHO IS CAMDELLE?!
Camdelle is an alias.Camdelle is a name that I chose for myself nearly 20 years ago to use as an incognito username on the internet. This character was originally created & dreamed up at a time when I could have used a hero in my life, a protector. The first time I ever used it was when I created a Human Paladin on World of Warcraft in 2004.Camdelle was the strong, powerful warrior that wears an unbreakable suit of armor that cannot be penetrated by those who may wish to harm her; she is an entity with the ability to slay dragons & solve complicated problems or puzzles without breaking a sweat. Camdelle a Paladin that becomes the light in the darkness for all those who seek help or guidance, a skilled swordswoman who seeks justice. Camdelle became everything I needed and wanted to be. A safe haven. A mask.When I decided to adopt this screen name widely across social media, Camdelle became a symbol of bravery, wisdom, and strength to me - someone that had risen like a phoenix from the ashes of her life.Camdelle is the name that I have used in place of my given name across multiple personal hobbies, like gaming or streaming, or as a protective shield of anonymity on the internet and across social media. Being Camdelle has given me confidence and has opened doors for me in my life & career that I'm not sure I could have found without "her" - but at the end of the day, the idea behind the moniker of Camdelle has always represented the best parts of me and who I want to be.For nearly 2 decades now, this has been a name that MANY people have known me as and have interacted with me daily - people I have come to consider family and many of my closest friends. After answering to the nickname “Cam” for more than half my life, it’s as much my name as the name I was born with. I will absolutely answer to either, and have no preference either way.By whichever name you know me as - I hope that I am also known as someone that is strong, capable, mindful, valid, and worthy of so much love & good in my life... I have been all along.I am Camdelle, I am Amber. I am both.
I am a mom, a partner, an artist, an entrepreneur... a woman who wears MANY hats, every day.
I am so much more than just a name, or a face, or text on a page.No matter what you call me: I am worthy, intelligent, fierce, loyal, and a total badass.
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“The cosmos is within us. We are made of star-stuff. We are a way for the universe to know itself.”- Carl Sagan
Living With Cancer
In 2021, after nearly a decade of searching for answers while being painfully symptomatic but constantly misdiagnosed and searching for answers - a skin biopsy finally led to a confirmed diagnosis of a cutaneous non-Hodgkin's lymphoma called:
MYCOSIS FUNGOIDES
[mai·coh·sis fun·goi·deez / fun·goydes]
Since then, I have been managing and keeping my condition at bay to the best of my ability while also trying to continue to keep living my life as "normally" as possible in the meantime.This is my story - my experience with an extremely abnormal kind of incurable cancer.
DISCLAIMER: I am not a doctor.
Everything on this page should be considered an opinion or an observation of my own personal experiences - this is not medical or treatment advice.
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MF / CTCL RELATED LINKS
MF / CTCL RELATED LINKSCutaneous Lymphoma Foundation
National Organization for Rare Disorders - CTCL
National Organization for Rare Disorders - Mycosis Fungoides
American Academy of Dermatology
National Cancer Institute
Cleveland Clinic
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FREQUENTLY ASKED QUESTIONS
LAST UPDATE: 04-28-2025What is your current cancer treatment plan?My current treatment is limited to Narrowband ultraviolet B (NB-UVB) treatment sessions at max time (10 minutes) in the lightbox; 2 days per week during the summer months (June - September) and then 3 days a week in the winter months (October - May). This treatment plan is flexible based on current need (flare ups), affordability, and time allowance.Why the lightbox and not chemo / radiation?Sunlight is ultimately the key to keeping this cancer at bay due to the early 1A/1B staging. Due to the lack of sunlight that Chicago has during the winter months, and the chaotic weather during sunny days or seasons, I have to get my "sun" from the phototherapy lamps. Chemotherapy and radiation treatments are only needed if my cancer spreads or worsens.I am beyond lucky that I was able to get a diagnosis for this condition before it moved past my skin. Some folks with this diagnosis, including the woman that likely saved my life by sharing her story, were not as fortunate and have since passed away from this horrific disease. It is for them that I continue to share my experience and story, as this is a unique experience for us & our loves ones.Can Mycosis Fungoides be cured or go into remission?MF/CTCL is incurable, but it can go into a remission-like state with active maintenance & treatment. (There have been some cases that have allegedly been cured by bone marrow transplant surgeries, but I do not currently meet the staging or criteria for one as far as I am aware).Where is your cancer? What does it look / feel like?My cancer covered approximately 40-50% of my skin at the peak flare point prior to starting treatments; the effected sections are nearly exclusively areas that are usually covered by clothing. If you are curious and would like to know where my cancer is / what my cancer looks like during a flare up, you can view this blog post, which is not safe for work due to the photos included.What are symptoms of Cutaneous T-Cell Lymphoma / Mycosis Fungoides? What does it feel like to have and live with this kind of cancer?You can read about my experience with MF / CTCL in a blog post called "Grayscale" - plus a lot of other personal stories & anecdotes, on my Ko-Fi blog. I will be writing as often as time allows to try to document my journey, tell the story of my life, & hopefully help others.